Gaheris Rhade (
truth_is_cold) wrote2013-03-28 10:00 pm
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Deal with this however you deem necessary. I don't care. I don't have any information that I can give outside of a functioning warden item and the assurance that there is still food available. What I do care about is that the people demoted, some of them worked hard to get there.
I sometimes have doubted my abilities as a warden, but I don't doubt that my inmate needs me. That as an inmate, there were intolerable conditions that no one should have to go through. And it wasn't the torture of alternate histories, it wasn't a lack of food or necessities, it wasn't the conflicts that we had to rise to. It was the indifference. We were disposable, we knew we were disposable. Many of the wardens here- new wardens that fought their way up from that -that gave their own lives meaning again rather than just hoping that they would find a permanent death.
They have to stand here and be told that was for nothing? Just because they know it's hard. Just because they have to look at their inmate and face the same odds that they faced, they have to be told that they don't deserve what they earned? These people are not punch clocks. None of us were.
Most of us had some warden that believed in us, even if it wasn't our own. So those of you that were demoted that worked hard to get here, those of you that feel guilty and worthless, or remotely incapable, this judgment is absolutely false. If you have it in you to disagree with any of this insanity, that's just as flawed. And to the current Admiral, I think you know it as well as I do.
[Spam for Ben]
[Rhade knows that Ben needs him, and he's not got the capacity to do any bridge raids. So it's Ben's room that he goes to next. He thumps on the door, and has a look either way down the hall.]
Deal with this however you deem necessary. I don't care. I don't have any information that I can give outside of a functioning warden item and the assurance that there is still food available. What I do care about is that the people demoted, some of them worked hard to get there.
I sometimes have doubted my abilities as a warden, but I don't doubt that my inmate needs me. That as an inmate, there were intolerable conditions that no one should have to go through. And it wasn't the torture of alternate histories, it wasn't a lack of food or necessities, it wasn't the conflicts that we had to rise to. It was the indifference. We were disposable, we knew we were disposable. Many of the wardens here- new wardens that fought their way up from that -that gave their own lives meaning again rather than just hoping that they would find a permanent death.
They have to stand here and be told that was for nothing? Just because they know it's hard. Just because they have to look at their inmate and face the same odds that they faced, they have to be told that they don't deserve what they earned? These people are not punch clocks. None of us were.
Most of us had some warden that believed in us, even if it wasn't our own. So those of you that were demoted that worked hard to get here, those of you that feel guilty and worthless, or remotely incapable, this judgment is absolutely false. If you have it in you to disagree with any of this insanity, that's just as flawed. And to the current Admiral, I think you know it as well as I do.
[Spam for Ben]
[Rhade knows that Ben needs him, and he's not got the capacity to do any bridge raids. So it's Ben's room that he goes to next. He thumps on the door, and has a look either way down the hall.]
[Private]
Sometimes I envy you, Gaheris. Maybe I should let Beka try being "the One" next and go live with you in the past. It could be like the retirement home for former Ones.
[Private]
I think she could do it. She would be wiser than to assume she could do it on her own, and Trance has faith in her. However... she walked away from the cause when I was there.
That, or she walked away from me. [It was probably that.]
[Private]
She walked away from me, too, at the end. For a while. [And came back again, but Dylan doesn't add that. He doesn't want to rub it in.]
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Re: [Private]
[what is a compliment, Rhade?]
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Seriously though, there's a little part of me [He gestures with two fingers very close together to demonstrate just how little. Feigns thinking about it, then extends the space so it's not so little.] that wants to drag you off to the future so you and Beka can date just so you'll be there as a barrier blocking all her boyfriends and ex-boyfriends from getting involved.
Although that would be kind of awkward now. You and her...and you and me...
[Private]
[He is, of course, lying. He is still perfectly capable of being a bastard, though not to the point of demotion apparently.]
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